little update

I had that surgery they say it was a success.. but its been 5 months now .. and I do a little palpitations here and there but nothing like before,

card making for my grandpas 85th

finished card ....

thank you cards BIG UN

new post

new post ... what on earth for, been writing on my Marine daughter's blog for over a year now .. she makes me so proud but I also get nervous of when she returns I won't know who she is. I worry about her daily and she's always in my thoughts and prayers.

but the same goes for my son even though he lives at home he makes me nervous daily .. works all night and goes to college all day. No real sleep and with a girlfriend no sleep at all... and you mean to tell me the docs say the answer to my health problems is for no stress ....hahahah they make me laugh. Getting real nervous I have many an important doctor appointment coming up....one is with a new neurologist and the other is with a special cardiologist an Electrophysiologist .. wow what a mouthful lol. So the the neuro is really for a second opinion because I got so upset with my last one.. I wrote a letter to my insurance and now they are sending me to a different one, can you believe my whole plan and they have one neuro who has no bed side manner and doesn't listen to the patient the the other doc I looked it up and posted some facts below....

electrophysiology key facts Electrophysiology is the fastest growing of all the cardiovascular disciplines. Electrophysiologists are cardiologists who have additional education and training in the diagnosis and treatment of abnormal heart rhythms. Close collaboration between electrophysiologists and other doctors who treat patients with heart disease is important. Based on the Heart Rhythm Society Workforce Survey, 999 electrophysiologists1 (experts in heart rhythm disorders) were identified for the 1995 U.S. population of 263,434,000, a ratio of 1:263,690. Of these 999, 795 are certified as having added special competency in electrophysiology by the American Board of Internal Medicine. Many have also passed the NASPExAM, the examination of special competence in cardiac pacing and implantable defibrillation. With about 16,000 cardiologists in the United States, these numbers result in 1 electrophysiologist:16 cardiologists. When the number of electrophysiologists/1,000,000 population is calculated, the U.S. average was 3.79/1,000,000. Twenty-one states had less than 8 electrophysiologists and 12 states had less than 2.2 electrophysiologists/1,000,000 population. Major cities, such as Philadelphia and Washington, DC, had high electrophysiologist/population densities. For example, there are some 50 electrophysiologists in the metropolitan Philadelphia area. In contrast, some rural areas have a minimal number of electrophysiologists (e.g., at the time of the survey, there was only one electrophysiologist in Idaho). Even in states that have electrophysiologist densities higher than the national average, patients may have to travel over 250 miles to the nearest electrophysiologist. For example, New Mexico has 3.93 electrophysiologists/1,000,000 population, however, all are located in Albuquerque. When to See an Electrophysiologist Electrophysiologists determine whether an individual is in a group that is at high risk for SCA or other cardiovascular diseases. A number of tests may be performed including: **(done it)**Echocardiogram. In this painless, noninvasive test, a device called a transducer is placed on the chest and sound waves are bounced off the heart. This provides a moving picture of the heart. **(done it twice)** Holter monitors are external devices that are worn by an individual who may be at risk for heart disease. The monitor automatically records a continuous electrocardiogram (ECG) of the heart's electrical activity; it usually is worn for 24 to 48 hours. **(had it too)**An event recorder is a small, pager-sized device that also records the electrical activity of the heart. Unlike a Holter monitor, it does not operate continuously, but instead is activated by the individual whenever he or she feels the heart begin to beat too fast or chaotically. After the device is activated to record the heart rhythm, the patient can report the event and transmit the recording by phone to his doctor or other health care provider. An electrophysiology study (EPS) is a test that can help predict if an individual is at high risk for sudden cardiac arrest. Signals are administered to the heart muscle in patterns to see if they will stimulate ventricular tachycardia (VT). The test is performed in a safe and controlled electrophysiology laboratory at a hospital or clinic and the patient is in no danger. In an EP study, local anesthetics are used to numb areas in the groin or near the neck, and small catheters are passed into the heart to record its electrical signals. During the study, the physician studies the speed and flow of electrical signals through the heart, identifies rhythm problems and pinpoints areas in the heart's muscle that give rise to abnormal electrical signals. An electrophysiology study can: Identify which patients who have had a prior heart attack, or MI, are at risk for serious ventricular arrhythmias and, perhaps, SCA. Help determine which patients may require aggressive treatment to prevent sudden cardiac arrest. Identify individuals whose hearts cannot be induced into dangerous arrhythmias. They appear at lower risk for developing spontaneous, sustained VT that can lead to ventricular fibrillation and sudden cardiac arrest. from the heart rhythm society thank you for the info I was scared till I read this not so nervous now ..good info ... prayers please .. I've had this problem since I was sixteen .. was always told there's nothing we can do, its not painful, later I was told you'll be a meds forever.. that seams true .... not painful my .... you try having all your blood being pushed through your body at 200 plus beats a minute ... everything hurts, your veins, your head, your wrists and neck ... and afterwards you are so tired you want to sleep the day away. Thinking if they do this maybe no more problem.. that would be so awesome, now if they can take car of the rest of my health probs I'd be a spring chick again lol ya right lol well enough of my ranting right .. peace out all hugs dar

been busy okay .. s you can see by my daughters blog .. that I get to when I can ... lol

Where am I .. same boat I think ... working .. my sons cooking, my daughter a Marine ... and me well, I wonder what curve ball will be thrown my way? It seams my days lately are work, writing letters, writing on the computer and waiting by the mailbox or by the phone... its the phone I'm waiting on today hoping for a call from my daughter.
Talk about how boring am I. I have made some of the best friends who are at least in my boat LOL waiting for their daughters to call as well. still trying to keep afloat, time and money whats that ??? LOL any way just my mini post since I mainly write on my daughter blog now .. until she wants to take it over, then we shall see if I keep it up here.... have a nice holiday weekend everyone .....dar

a long way

miss Erica has come along way..
She has talked and talked about her plans.. in the beginning I thought maybe thats what it was talk,
especially when we started having all kinds of family things happen on both sides of the family.
My grandmas cancer and miss erica helping take care of her then my grandpa breaking his hip, she was the back bone through it all. I know she is a teenagers but she has really shown resolve and strength, I think she will do great in her career choice.
Sometimes I go through the mom thing, worrying that someone's using her but I do have to let her grow up.. right?
I told her she has gone through boot camp for boot camp .. literally. Sometimes I think poor thing, then I tell her
good thing her basketball coach was a drill sergeant .. lol .. shes been exercising every day running, crunches and the wii fit.
There is no way I could do what she is doing for herself. She wants to travel the world, and wants to learn about others. I am scared and excited for her all at the same time. Hoping we can have a party before the big send off, we shall see. I will try to keep posting the road to her adulthood here. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers, and me too for my sanity .. lol thanks dar ..
or as Eddie from work calls me dardar .. lol

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1. I have two awesome kids Bryan 22 and Erica 19 ....they are my reason.

2. Born and raised ..Roman Catholic.. one of my greatest joys was seeing both my kids confirmed.

3.Born at the Beach went to high school in the mountains, now live in between. well sort of

4. San Bernardino Mountains... miss it but I dont miss shoveling the snow. :)

5. Met my (X) husband at Snow Valley Ski Area, when I started working there. was married 20 years..

6. I had a younger sister named Michele, she passed away at 35 years old. She was a quadrapaligic from a car accident at 18 years old.

7. Moved to L E when Erica was two... and I wanted to stay in one place till my kids were grown. We have done that even though my kids went to different high schools, because ericas sophmore year they built a new high school.. its awesome ..looks like a college.

8. Plans for a career in High School was to go into the Air Force, instead I got married, no regrets.
Even if it ended differently than I wanted.

9. I am a certified framer (picture frames) used to work at *****, made awesome friends there, was a notary, let it expire keep thinking I should renew, I am a CNA certified nurse assitant. (too much stress) it takes an awesome and special person.

10. I had three strokes in 2005, they say stress induced... so sometimes the brain has a mind of its own. ..lol ok so I think I'm funny.. ahh maybe not.

11. I met my best friend when I had my son join boyscouts... that was 15 years ago, and my son Bryan is an Eagle Scout.. one of my proudest days. I was awards chairman and a cub scout leader.

12. I was a girl scout leader also....loved to camp, love the outdoors. Did it for my daughter but it was hard to do both boy and girl scouting at the same.

13. I am a total anime and manga (japanese comics and cartoons) addict... :) Believe it or not Yu-gi-oh! is my first love.. love the dragons... :)

14. Movies and music are my thing, not so much country really only cause most of it makes me cry. oh and I dont like to many horror movies.. suspence okay not slasher...

15. Love to read - manga, star wars , romance, sci-fi... religon. Love playing on the computer and keeping in touch with everyone.

16. My faith is me...I may not be a holy roller but I know what I believe. I know theres a reason for everything. I know he has a plan for me. I am very conservative in my religion and politics.

17. I am accountable, dont like liars, I panic if I think I might be late , but the truth is I'm usually a hour early.. not all the time but most. lol Even at work they ask why are you here so early, I am an early bird.

18. Im very close to my parents who have been married 43 years, they live only 10 miles away, so does my grandpa. My daughter has been helping him since he broke his hip, hes up and around now, so hes doing better.

19. My background, I'm Irish and German from my mom and French Canadian and Mexican from my dad although they say the mexican might be some Native American Indian.. lol all in all good old fashion American melting pot.

20. I grew up with almost old McDonalds farm... horses, cow sheep pigs rabbits chickens, cats and dogs...garden, orchard... miss the horses.. love dogs, they are my buds.

21. Learned to snow ski about 16 years old... then i married into the ski buisness just didnt know it would end the way it did, one by blowin out my knee and two by hostle take-over. Do miss the days of walkin out my door to the ski lifts watching my son run in the huge rain-birds watering the mountain in the summer.

22. I have never been out of the USA... not even to Mexico. and as far east as I have been are Texas, Colorado, Oklahoma, Montana and all western states.. only been on a plane twice. update .. not true anymore flew to Tennessee, then to Florida, and drove through Georgia to South Carolina for my daughter Marine Corp Grad.

23. My hair was blonde , but its really brown but my friends convinced me to go darker now it chocolate cherry...I am a dark person .. not really knowing what that means some say goth I say no just want express myself which I dont anymore really for goodness sake I am an adult now... as a teenager I was all in black and thick black eyeliner and loved The Cure.. ok still do. My parents thought I was going off the deep end, no I say its just hair and clothes.. after all it was the 80's.

24. Believe it or not I have never done drugs, well illegal kind not even pot. Not to say I wasnt around it, I was even called a goody two shoes but thats okay; I dont even like coming out of anathesia... lol, might have a drink once in a while but when beer relaxes you so much you just want a nap. :)
A komakazi please.....

25. I dont know some of this I think should I reveal but then I say oh well you only live once.Just want to close with I have the greatest two kids in the world, I know I couldnt make it without them, they are my strength, my friends and my confidants..... oh you know what I mean the brain has a mind of its own. God Bless and take care!

I think a little to much info huh.... lol... smile be happy, or like I say "fake it till you make it".

2008 updated 9/2009